Monday, May 4, 2009
Love Lock Down
Well since the "incident" that almost took place, I decided I need a break from women right now.
Hell to be blunt, I'm just not in the mood to be around anything that bleeds once a month and gives birth to a person.
I'm bitter as fuck right now, I cant lie, I'm pissing acid even Kanye West's 808 and Heartbreaks album is starting to sound good as hell to me right now.
I don't want to be around them right now until I'm at least 100% in my mind set, because that chick was supposed to get it in the worst way.
I'm talking about even after I decided not to do her I still thought about putting some sugar in her gas tank, carving ho into her car, smearing dog ish on her door handle, all sorts of nonsense.
Hell I was going to put her name and pic on Craig's List under "services" complete with name, number, and address.
But after the Craig's List murderer was busted I decided that was not a good idea, I mean if I'm not going to do it than I don't want any one else to.
That is not a mind set I want to carry on into another relationship.
See that way I don't take out my frustrations on some poor woman who did nothing wrong to me.
And it doesn't help that women who have been around me of late are prone to showing their ass at any given moment.
Case in point Ms. BootyStar was complaining about not being appreciated by her family for the things that she decides to do such as taking care of her sister's kids.
The woman went on a tirade because on of the little girls rushed out the house to get to school with out saying good by to her.
This of course means that the kid in her mind is going to turn out like her mother, and basically talk trash about her.
Now she is yelling, I mean straight up screaming about it to me and pissing me off.
So I tell her the truth, it's not that you are not feeling unappreciated you want some one to kiss your ass on command and every one is fed up with.
That why your boyfriend would rather spend time hanging with his boys than you, it's why none of your family pays attention to you.
So of course she gets mad hangs up on me and haven't heard from her since.
Than there is is Ms. E a young girl who has taken a liking to me, she gets my number we talk a couple of times, and next thing I know she is asking for rides every were and asking me to buy her weed.
We haven't even gone out on a date yet, bye, bye to that.
Than there is the good girl who has not done anything, but has a keen interest in me going to med school which is making me think "if I'm not good enough for you now, what the fuck makes you think that you will good enough for me if I decide to go and graduate?".
Yeah so every one is out, I'm taking a vacation and locking down the heart for a while.
That way I can concentrate on other things and do me for a while.