When it comes to relationships I am the Great Saboteur.
I know how to screw it up royaly.
Over the weekend a homeboy of mine pointed this out to me by way of women associates.
He noticed that the women that I called good friends were what you would call marriage material.
Educated, intelligent, kind hearted, universally attractive, centered and ordereed in their lives.
These are the that I kick it with, hang out, absolutely no fooling with.
He than pointed out that the women I chased around, were ussually unmotivated, zero ambition, scandalous, chaotic, out right trouble.
To be honest I already knew this but I did not realize that their was a pattern.
Every women I take seriously is a walking disaster.
My friend says I am suffering from a hero complex, (more popularly known as Captain Save a Ho), that I am trying to be a hero to these women so I only seek out the ones in need, knowing damn well you cant help those who will not help themselves.
He maybe right but I hate to think I am that naive, what I think is that I am choosing these women because they are easy to walk away from.
You see with a woman who has her act together you have to put in 100% effort, no half stepping.
I know I am not willing to do that because that means a very serious relationship that I want no part of.
I do not consider my self twisted for it just not ready for it.